Be the better you.

Most of the time I always seem to conversate with those around me about what our accomplishments and goals may have been. Seemingly enough, I run into a brick wall when the question arises, "what has been your major accomplishments and goals?" Not that I have nothing to vouch for, but mostly because I have a hard time boasting about my identity and how good I am about my job. I'm a complete extravert by nature, yet allowing my ego to drive me to talk about how important I am I always steer to the discuss what my future accomplishments will be.

For example:

1. I would like to graduate CSUN with a 3.0 or higher: Since I was a complete jerk in my first attempt at college at College of the Desert, I aim to be the complete opposite of that.

 

2. Involve myself more in the campus culture: I'm am in two different clubs on campus with kids younger than I, and I do the absolute grunt work just to show I am ready to work. I don't want to miss out on what I have already missed out on before.

Kinesiology Majors Club at CSUN

3. Reach out to models about body image: Every model (including myself) has gone through a form of body image issues or eating disorders and feel that it is almost necessary to keep that image up.

4. Write: Ok, so... I don't have the best grammar. I am not a journalist, nor did I go to school for it. However, my writing abilities have achieved a better comprehension level then where I was before. Now that I maintain those capabilities, I want to share with the world my experience with modeling and how to become successful.

5. I want children: Oh, so girly of me. But, it is my decision to make it a goal. Why? It's hard teaching the value of life to our youth today about how important it is to use imagination rather to discover one on the internet.

6. Keep in contact with my friends: With the advancement of technology, we feel we no longer have the obligation to call each other when its as easy as posting a disconnected "happy birthday" on someone's wall. Or even text message them to keep them up to date in our life. Whatever happened to, "hey, want to do lunch?", or even a simple phone call to let them know we were thinking about them?



Girlfriends of Hawaiian Tropic

7. Grace a COVER of a magazine: not because of my ravishing good looks (note the sarcasm), really because I want to share my story of overcoming my fears and what I did to get there. There still is an ample amount I do hold back.

8. Be the person my dog sees me as: You may have heard this from your social media feeds, and it holds true. When my dog greets me after I have had a long day at work or school, she does it in the most loving way possible. She wags her little tail and licks my face till I break out. She snuggles in between my armpit and my rib cage never wanting her to let her go. As I sometimes see it, she is a dog. Yet in her eyes, I am the perfect companion.

Tiny, my little dog.

9. Disengage in technology: WE are ALL guilty of this. I will skim for hours wondering what everyone is doing, or as some call it "trolling". In the end, I find myself missing an hour of my life with my fiancé, or making a phone call to a close friend.

10. Don't take myself so seriously: I find myself in moments where if something doesn't go my way or if I didn't nail a gig, I will blame it on me. Here is the thing, so many situations happen for a reason. If it wasn't supposed to happen, that's because another opportunity was waiting for me.

These may seem like the type of goals in which many will have the reaction like, "yea... so what?". With my experience in life, it is not about who you were but who your striving to be.